Today’s Reflection june 23

Holding Myself Responsible

From our first change in attitude, we isolated ourselves. We began to build a wall around us, especially between us and those who were closest (SA 53).

While a relapse may seem sudden, most sexaholics know that it has been approaching for a long time. Little by little, we stopped taking the necessary actions to maintain our spiritual health and we let lust re-enter. We lost the desire to free ourselves from lust. We matured for relapse as we stopped making the real connection with our Higher Power and with other SA members.

While working the Steps after a relapse, my sponsor made me develop a plan to avoid another slip. I made a list of the signs of my active addiction: isolating myself, skipping meetings, not calling other members, skipping daily prayer and meditation. I asked my spouse and four members of the SA to confront me whenever they thought I might be falling in one of these areas. I also gave them permission to confront me if they noticed any behavior of mine that they thought might lead to a relapse. And if they confronted me, I promised to work on steps One, Two and Three on that behavior.

This plan helps me hold myself accountable to others in SA. Today I know that relapse is optional. It returns because I choose to do so and, today, I choose sobriety. Recovery from lust is too valuable to lose.

Help me keep my connection with You. My sobriety and my life depend on it.